November … A New Beginning ?

I am exhausted of my old self that is why I am breaking out of the intense, controlled, stressed … shell of mine to a blank new canvas. What is the point of worrying the unknown? Never fight life as life always win. I am learning to adjust to it, work with it and make the best out of it. Many things have happened that made me woke up from all my assumptions, dreams and plans. It is time for new ones that are more fulfilling.

I have learnt not to be selfish. Who am I to deprive people of their time if they are happy with where and who they are with? If  one can feel great happiness and accomplishments where they are, should I even deprive them of their happiness to fulfill mine. My mere existence is there to fill in the gap, be around when needed, provide a listening ear and step aside when not  … I shall play my role well which will be beneficial to all. I don’t care if I will ever be appreciated, be the focus or being noticed anymore. If things are meant to be, it will just happen. .

I am not unhappy, I have grown to understand so much better and seeing things clearer. Some things can’t be change no matter how hard I have tried … I just wanna live my life positively, learn to conceal emotions and move on. Everything is still unknown, uncertain and unwritten … My canvas is here … always ready for one to fill it up with stories and pictures. Can they be lovely and blissful ones?