“Who is that girl I see … Staring back right at me … “
Today is 26th. 5 more days to the end of July … One of the worse July I had so far. A Dark and Depressing month. Tears flowed nightly. Depressing vibes filled my soul. Suicidal thoughts flashed across my mind. It was that bad. My heart was aching badly, physically and mentally exhausted. I just wanted to hide and to burrow into the dark mist.
Thus I reached out. I confided, expressed my thoughts and feelings but the reactions I got were pretty upsetting. I am thankful that there are still good souls that are truly concerned for me. I thought I should be direct with my feelings and confided because I needed help and a listening ear but I am beginning to wonder if I should just keep silent of my pain next time.
I am really tired of being in a depressed and negative mode. It is killing me to the extent that I wanna slice myself up. All these years of sufferings should be enough for me to start getting a slightly better and positive life aite. I may not be able to get what a girl hopes for in life but at least give me a chance to shine. It’s about time.
“I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
There’s a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide
I won’t pretend that I’m
Someone else
For all time”
” When will my reflection show … Who I am inside …”
(The reflection will show the 2 of us)
