Why must I make a Sweet Lovely Thing so Complicated?
It’s the mind wrecking havoc girl!
Simplicity is the way.
All I have to do is not to analyse or immerse in deep thoughts … they kill me .. depete my energy…
No matter how much I think, things will not work if they aren’t 2 ways. So why think? Just flow …
5:01am …. Still awake …. I need to shed the deep thinking monster in me …. the emo devil
It’s 4:22am … What’s Envy?
The only Envy left in me is my Gucci Envy Perfume …
soon it will be used up and there will be no more envy.
Weekends.. in the streets … in the restaurants … at the malls … in the cinemas … even at the escalators …. My eyes start to have a mist forming over them … For I know I cannot see or envy and envy does/must not exist in me. For those who are bless having their special someone with them … Treasure it … For some can’t even get close to it.
Hopes, Wishes … Please remove them from me … For I do not believe in them anymore. The more you believe in them, the harder you fall.
So what’s left? Dreams, Goals, Strength .. that will keep me going till the day I am gone …
And how can I forget Wait … For my all my life … I have been waiting … waiting … …
I should appreciate … Maybe it’s the thoughts that count even though they cannot be made into reality.
Yes … I want it … but there’s nothing I can do … the more I think … the more my mind gets cranked up.
It’s all in the mind and especially for a girl like me who loves analyzing … Gimme More Strength! I need it.
Abiding the rules, Singles can only purchase a public apartment at the age of 35.
* Plan A – Work hard, save up and purchase an apartment at the age of 35 … have lots of pets and work even harder
(Current Stage: It’s impossible now even though I worked hard)
* Plan A2 – Once I reached the age of 65 – 70, I will sell my apartment and with the money/savings, I shall enroll myself into an old age home where I spent my golden years till I bid goodbye to the world …
(Current Stage: It’s impossible to happen, looking at my situation now. Hehe. I guess I may just become a homeless old lady 
)
BUT
Plans A & A2 are just my initial thoughts.
As for now I have New PLANS … Cause I ain’t Alone now.
Plan S: Work even harder so I can re-locate …
Plan S1: Rent an apartment when I have the ability
Plan S2: … … … … … ( I want to state them down but I cannot even though my heart wants them so much … Girl’s thoughts … bet you will know what I am thinking … something I once oppose yet I yearn for them now)
So what should I do now? I know the Answer!
Double W … WORK & WAIT … Wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait 
Wasted too much time in the past … Now … I just want to treasure every hour, minute and second.
How much more time do I have left? Ageing … …
Don’t think … just wait … yes … work hard and wait … that’s all I can do for now …
Wait Wait Wait … …
Barriers After Barriers … All these years I’ve been placing barricades around me … There are many times I feel being taken for granted. It’s not that I wanna complain. I always give and it’s ok if I don’t receive. But when people take advantages of my kindness … Sorry I won’t allow this.
There is this tiny path that I’ve hidden in these barricades. For people who really understand me, will be able to find this path. This is also the path where I am able to be who I really am and for me to move out of my barricades.
This path has stages on it’s own. It leads to a doorway … A doorway to my heart, life and soul. The path is still the same but there is someone walking towards me from the path … As I am walking towards my own door. As the door opened, our eyes met. No words were spoken but We knew that we complete each other’s path.
Beginning of the Silly Journey … whatever it may lead us to … we will still embark on it.
Dear DaDa & BroBro,
27th is Special ‘Cause of you guys!
Enjoy this Lovely day! Muacks!
With Clarity of the Mind, Body, Heart and Soul … Comes Greater Love, Passion, Determination and Energy to Sail through Everything.
” Life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to accept life unquestioningly. Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate, or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a source of beauty, joy, and strength, if faced with an open mind. Every moment is a golden one for him who has the vision to recognize it as such. “
- Henry Miller (1891 – 1980)
Time should never be wasted. Grab hold of every hour, minute and second. Treasure the one you love and never cast them away. Time is precious, love too. Never give the silent treatment as it hurts way more than anything else. Just like youth…youth should never be wasted and my youth is depeting fast … Soon I will be a bitter grumpy old woman! I will still stick with the one I love because I treasure everything despite contantly being ………… I won’t WALK away and no one can make me do so. I stand firmly and I hold even tightly with me. I won’t allow anything to make me fall … Every pain makes me stronger and further strengthens my feelings. I will emerge a survivor that will enjoy sweetness after bitterness. A person should never be left alone. It takes 2 to walk out of darkness. If there’s a union of hearts, let me in and face everything too.
